College.

College is one of the many things in life that is certainly not for me. I am tired of the douche bag guys that walk the campus , one after another. Almost as though the supply is neverending. I am tired of going out on a WEDNESDAY. tomorrow is read day, a day the school gives us off so we can STUDY. Not go out and get totally drunk so tomorrow could be a day of recovery.
I've been meaning to come and sit out on the promenade for a while, while nobody else was out here. It is very calm and soothing. Maybe I can even get back into song writing again. Music is my true passion in life, I don't know why I ignore it so much. Singing is something that makes me truly truly happy.
Over my 18 years, I've learned that i'm the ony one that can make myself happyu. I am not ever going to have a boy in my life to do it for me, so I might as well get used to standing on my own two feet alone. No more hooking up, no more talking unless i'm being spoken to. I hate myself. But we already knew that.

When I made this blog, it was titled the self love project for a reason, but really, it should be titled :
REASONS WHY ALYSSA BLOCH WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER BE ALONE AND IS UGLY AND FAT AND IF SHE WEREN'T SHE WOULD HAVE A BOYFRIEND blog.

I'll work on that one. ASAP